That Cyster Girl

Welcome back to my blog!

It has been such a rollercoaster ride since 2020-2021. I know a lot of you have been wondering where I have been. Well, let me tell you.

If you read my last blog post, you know that I stopped the fertility treatment in 2020 due to many failed cycles, the pandemic, and school. I decided it would be best to focus on myself. As we entered 2021, everything seemed to be on the up and up. I signed up for a gym membership; I did very well in the winter semester. I made it through without catching covid. However, I did not have my rainbow baby, and I gained a crap ton of weight. All and all, I was still happy things were on the better side, SO I THOUGHT!

As the new year moved on, I started hitting obstacles left and right as far as school-wise. Then my health wasn’t looking as good; my GYN decided it would be best to remove my uterus since it was not serving me any good. The GYN said whenever I am ready, he will do it. Since I only had one child, that was a massive victory. The rules state that women should have two children before having a hysterotomy. But then it dawned on me that I was not ready to give up on having another child. Every time I addressed the idea of doing it, I was met with sadness within myself. I have yet to mustard up the courage to say yes.

At that point, I was burnt out and ready to give up. Here I was, 25 years old, about to lose my uterus, couldn’t get into my school’s program due to little issues, which led me to fail the spring semester. I honestly felt like a true failer. Moving into the summer, I took the failed course again since I had an academic warning. I also realized I hadn’t worked in 5 and 1/2 years. I looked for a medical job to help me choose whether I should go into that field or just find something else. After being denied by a few hospitals, I successfully got a job at a local hospital. I also passed my failed class with a C. But then our daughter was diagnosed with scoliosis. Despite this sad news, we were still excited to embark on her new kindergarten journey.

As things seem to be getting better, my husband hits me with a typical military statement. “I’m leaving for a while.”. If you don’t have a great support system around you that statement isn’t fun to hear. Here I was, trying to juggle the fall semester, work, take care of our child, a sweet labradoodle, and everything else as far as our home. Boy, let me tell you, my faith, strength, mental health, and everything were tested. Luckily through the months, I was able to lean on my neighbor and a few others for help. I can not thank them enough.

I ended up in the ER during that time due to another harmful period. But I still applied again to the schools’ program, and sure enough, I GOT IN. I knew my life and our family lives were about to change with that small victory. I was able to pass the fall semester with good grades; I adjusted my work schedule to be more present in our child’s life and prepare for this new journey. Sadly, I decided to leave my job and focus on my studies. There is no way I can manage that extra workload.

Additionally, I met with a new doctor to discuss future health plans; I am finally making appointments to help me live a longer, fuller life.
This week has been very busy, despite being treated like crap at my job since I am leaving. I still provide the best services to my patients. 2021 was another year for the books! I am grateful for it all, and I know 2022 will be a more prosperous year. I am so excited to announce that I am a nursing student! I know this battle is just beginning. But I will be victorious!

I started loving my body more, wearing things I never thought I would. I am finally embracing more of myself. I can’t thank y’all enough for the support that y’all have shown me. I am still managing this ship alone, but I know that I am one badass mom and wife! I’ve shared so many laughs and tears this year. May 2022 be a better year for you all despite the high rising COVID numbers.

Cheers to 2022!!!! Stay safe!

Below is a collection of photos of my year. I hope you guys subscribe, and stay tuned for more blog entries!