Nobody tells you that the pain would be beyond physical, I never thought I would find myself in such a dark space. Everyday it’s internal battle with myself, some days I feel hopeless and other days I feel drained. I don’t know how many times I kept saying I wanted to give up on this battle and on life. Yes, you read that right. I said life… Most of you don’t know how it feels to know that there is something wrong with you and every doctor you go to doesn’t seem to value your life and just pushes you to the side. Some of you guys don’t know what it is like to deal with this, while raising a toddler and constantly having a spouse who leaves quite often. I’ve put in every effort to keep my life together, but sometimes super hero’s gets tired. Every time I look at my daughters face, she gives me life to keep pushing. All those moments I’ve cried and broke down and she would come running with hugs and kisses, I could see in her eyes that everything will be okay. It’s amazing how God can use people.
life is so precious and we as people often forget that. With that being said, don’t wait until that girl is close to killing herself, to stop bullying her. Don’t wait until your homie finishes a whole case of beer to take his keys away. Don’t wait until your friend finishes her last text for you to take her phone, so she can pay attention to the road. Guys don’t wait until it’s too late to do something or check on someone.
If you need someone don’t hesitate to call: